Home Sickness

People suffer from bouts of it when they are lonely and have no one. I have been feeling it for quite some time and I don't think loneliness is one of the reasons. I just feel I need to go home. I like my carefree life where all I have to worry about is paying my bills. But I think there is a sense of responsibility I have been feeling for some time and I need to address it at some point. I need to figure out that the reason I want to go home. I think one of the main reasons is my father is getting old and my mom is not keeping well either. To add to this I have grandparents who are really not happy in their situation and I feel I can improve it. By addressing all these my sister who has been saddled with all the responsibility will get a reprieve.

It is really difficult to explain the situation to anyone because I do not talk about my personal issues with people and they know of nothing that conspires at home. I don't think I need to explain my actions to anyone but I need to make a decision soon. I have started the background work to look for a job in India and now I need to start applying. Who knows maybe that is my destiny and that is where I should be and not at some fancy business school, lying through my teeth. I think I need to be at home where people understand my priorities and this time I am sure home is somewhere in India, not in this country where everyone questions my english and my mannerisms and just me in general.