Being an introvert

I am a high introvert, always been that way. Earlier used to think it was my lack of self confidence or my super extrovert father that made me want to blend into the background. Over a period of time, I have slowly learnt that its just people, they tire me. People talking loud, people asking me questions, people just all around trying to get to vie for my attention. It has been the case at home for the last couple of weeks, "Bindi do x, bindi do y, bindi talk to me" while Bindi just wants to crawl in a hole and have silence for the next 30min. The noise almost makes me dysfunctional and I cannot stop it from tiring me to a point of annoyance. It isn't always the case in most scenarios. 

A recommendation from my former boss in the mill stated that I thrive in chaos and when the world is falling apart, I am the one stoic person in the centre. It's very true because when the noise is around me but not directed at me, I stop, I evaluate and arrive at solutions while thinking of multiple possible issues that might arise. One of the qualities of an INTJ person who overthinks every issue but it also means I am prepared for just about anything. 

While this has helped in my journey so far, there are days or weeks when I do disappear. In this digital world do find it difficult to disconnect but I try to turn off the phone, walk away and just be with me. For the last couple of weeks or just about any time when I come home to the parents, it has been difficult. While I normally blame it on them, its me the introvert who is unable to get the space to just breathe and so I get cranky. 

My cousin used to say my tolerance level was 3 days with anyone where on day 4 I would pick a fight. Now I know why, I just need to walk away and get the quiet or I become crabby and fight with all. Travails of being an introvert, need to know when you need the space and just yourself or you become difficult for the world around you.