Total Lack of Motivation

I am not sure if it the cold or just me but I am not in the mood to do anything. Well not  anything, I did read all of bbc, digg and gizmodo. Maybe I will read espn next but I really have no inclination to do any work. Also I have no interest in working on my essays. It is highly likely that this is due to the lack of sleep because I have been doing 4hrs every night instead of my usual 8 so I feel like I am in a lethargic state where my brain is half shut down.

I think the lack of motivation to do any work also stems from the fact that I have no real projects at the moment. I am done with the things I had to do this year and I don't have anything new to start working on. Well maybe I do but I have to read a gazillion manuals before I start and I also need help which I doubt I am ever going to get.I have arrived at the conclusion that I just hate my job. I hate the idea of getting up in the morning and coming to work. I think it has reached that stage because the work is not challenging enough and the people well, I have no one to talk to. I know self pity again but it is true, this place is boring and sometimes when you need a break, you need someone who is not whining about the tragedies in their life because you are already down in the dumps and they are not helping the case.

The disinclination to do the essays is because now they seem to represent something alien. They look good, no doubt about that but I am tired of answering the question what I want to do after my mba. If I knew that, wouldn't I just do it. What I want to do is go to school and find a new career, find a new life. I really have no direction right now and I thought business school would help me but it looks like I have to help them and tell them exactly how I want to map my life. I don't know because I never planned my life in the past and don't intend to in the future. 

Yes I am just cranky and sleepy. All the reasoning above is lame and all I need is a cup of caffeine and I will be bright and sprightly. I also need a couple of glasses of beer and some friends I can hang out with.Some people who actually have some direction in life and are not looking up to me for their motivation because right now I feel everyone is as clueless as I am, looking at the other for some motivation.