Alone and Scared

I have talked about this to other friends who live alone and it is a general sentiment amongst all. Every one of them is scared that if something happens to them, no one will know for days. Well maybe people at work might notice that you are not around but they will just assume you are sick. I am not envisioning that someone is going to break into my house and kill me even though that happens and I have been warned by my family to be super careful. The thing I am most scared about is tripping in the bathroom or fainting and lying on the floor with no phone around because I don't have it with me all the time. It has happened to me a couple of times that I fainted when I was sick and I guess I got up after a couple of minutes and just dragged my self to bed clutching that phone like a life line just in case I had to call 911. Or when I have had a bad dream and scream aloud in the night or when some drunk idiot is banging on my door instead of his own, the only person reassuring me is I and I am back to clutching the phone to call 911.

I am just writing this because I am sick again today. Nothing serious just a cough, throbbing headache and the start of a cold. Its the normal that happens to me a couple of times in winter but I realized that no one knows where I am, not even the people at work. Well they did eventually when they had a problem and called me to fix something. I know I am wallowing in self pity but it would be nice if I had someone around, just a roommate who would run out and get me some soup or hot food, instead of the disgusting Campbell soup that I just had. Well has to be a good roommate because some of them don't care. Wouldn't it be nice if all single people living alone had a system where they would periodically call each other and check just to know if the other one is alive. I know my parents care and call all the time but it is kind of reassuring to just know that someone who is close by and can do something is checking. Well what can anyone do, it was my choice to live alone.