Wrapping up

I have not even started packing and just the thought of uprooting my entire life and moving somewhere else is making me sick. My plan this weekend was to fill bags to give to salvation army and start selling stuff online but all I did was sleep. I cannot bring myself to sell my belongings and move. I thought this was going to be a new beginning, a start to a different life but this difference in normalcy is petrifying.

It is not just things, it is people too. I did not realise but in the last four years I have accumulated a lot of friends and to say bye to them and move is going to be really difficult. Just this weekend I got random questions like, who am I going to dunk in the lake at Judys or who is going to help me make my set. I did not realise I was such an integral part of someone's life till these questions were posed. I figured that I would just move on and no one would notice. I guess some people will but they will forget after a month but I will not. I spent four years with these people and some of them were like family so to break all these ties and never come back is going to be difficult.

I don't know how people do it but I am going to find it really difficult to wrap my entire life in a couple of boxes and move on to a different stranger life.