A Need

There are times when I claim that I am happy being single and I like living alone. I dont need anyone to tell me what to do and I am very happy. I think I am lying to me and everyone around me. I hung out with a couple this weekend who have been together since school and are going to get married soon. There was something about the way they understood each other and were there for each other that, made me crave for more. I don't necessarily want a marriage but, I just want someone who holds my hand, understands me and talks to me at a dinner table. Someone who appreciates me and cares to make sure that I am ok. Someone who calls when they say they will. Someone who just doesn't want me because I am female but because I am a human being they can connect with.Someone who makes me happy and doesn't behave like I don't exist till they want something from me.I know friends do most of it but I just dont want a friend. I guess its time that I think I need a companion, a mate...whatever you call it...a real boyfriend and not just a buddy who satisfies some of my needs.