Good Friend

How difficult is it to have a good friend and keep them for life. According to me, very difficult but maybe it's just me coz I still don't have one friend that I can say I have confided most of my secrets too. Well I do have some but keeping them seems to feel like more work. They are awesome friends most of the times but the rest you have to work at it. Friendship should not be work...its not a relationship. Friends are supposed to understand you, atleast to some level and not except you to behave by the same standards they set for themselves.

Personally I feel everyone is different and to cast everyone in your own mold is just wrong. If I am making a mistake, they should try and stop me but if I keep doing it because I want to, then they should be there for me instead of not talking to me. I know what I am doing and if I get hurt I am going to be ready for it but what I want from them is a reminder once in a while and just a constant friendship. I just need to be understood,maybe just by me because I don't have answers for most of my actions for myself. Maybe I am just not meant to have a good friend and should go back to my cocoon and be happy in my own company because then no one has the power to hurt me coz when a friend decides to give you the silent treatment, it hurts a lot.