Old Boy Friends

Yeah thought of something. This has been on my mind for sometime so why not just put it down. Its not really old boyfriends, its just one old boyfriend officially. It is funny but I have broken up with him more than a year ago and he is happily married but there are still random things that remind me of him and the happy times we had together. Its funny now when I think of him, I don't really think of the fights and horrible things we told each other towards the end. I think more of the nice things and beautiful times I spent with him. He is like a happy memory that I have stored away.

The 2 years that I actually was with him were one of the happiest times in my life and I will credit that to the wonderful person I was with. Not many people can be with the kind of person I am, closed in a shell and awfully hurtful at times pushing people away but he was really patient. Not that he didn't have his faults but the good times together made me overlook his faults. I am pretty sure if his wife ever reads this she will think I am still in love with him or have feelings for him but the truth is I don't and I lost those a long time ago but I have some memories and I can't really part with them. Some really happy memories that make me wonder sometimes if I made the correct decision in leaving him, which I did obviously. That chapter of my life is closed forever and he is banished to a tiny corner of my brain for he belongs to someone else and I have no right over him, not even as a friend.