Anger & Tears

It is a funny thing combining these two isn't it but for some reason with one, comes the other always. I have tried to suppress my anger for years, there have been times when I would want to scream and hit people but all I would do is smile and make stupid jokes. I still do it but for the last couple of years my anger has started bubbling to the surface.I have always been short tempered but chose to seethe within. Now it just seems to burst out at the wrong moments and wrong people. Mainly people who don't care and make jokes about it, since they know I will apologize later because I hate getting angry, it makes me feel like a weak person. The worse part is the anger does not come by it self; it comes with a torrent of tears.

I get angry at something that I think is important but, other people don’t understand at all. It’s not there fault because even if they claim they are my friends, they just don’t know me. I need to stop confiding in these friends and keep them at arms length since all they do is infuriate me more than, help me in any of my dilemmas. Also I need to find a way to channel my anger or, it’s going to come out with an outpour of tears at the most inopportune time and then, I will repent it forever.