Uncertainties

Does it scare you sometimes when you think what life has in store for you, I do and it petrifies me. Normally I would not care and would just go with the flow but currently where I stand on the cusp of making one of the biggest decisions in my career, I am terrified. It just feels that there are too many ifs and buts that are out of my control like if I get a good GMAT score and if I get into a good school and so on. Well some of them like the GMAT score are under my control because it depends on how much I study but it still bothers me as everything depends on this one chance and if I mess this up then my path of escape from this horrid job might someway not be as easy as it seems.

Yes I know nothing in life is easy but sometimes you have your life planned like I did at one point when I was in school, go to engineering school, get a masters and then get a job. I figured while doing that I would know what was next in line. I finished everything on my list and now I have nothing. It's like there is an empty board to start out all over again and that scares the daylight out of me.