Death and Regrets
"Goodbyes make you think. They make you realise what you’ve had, what you’ve lost, and what you’ve taken for granted."
- Ritu Ghatourey
The recent death of my maternal grandfather due to Covid and then everything after made me realise something very important. Over the years for various reason I have it avoided that house, call it self preservation. What I realised is there was one person there who loved my mother to pieces and tried everything in his capacity to make her life better. He cared about me too and tried to connect. He would call, ask for me and request that I visit but I just did not.
Now when I look back all those years, I have no memories with him. No time to think back on and grieve over. I lost a grandfather 5 years ago but I had another one and I chose not to spend time with him. What I lost was precious time to learn from him, to create memories that I would have cherished for life.
I cannot go back and change what has happened because we lost him this week. I do promise myself that if my grandmother comes home, I will make an effort to connect and create a relationship with her. This is the only grandparent I have left and who knows what she can teach me.
I don't normally take relationships for granted. I value them, cherish them and invest in them. This one unfortunately I did not and hence will live to regret it for the rest of my life.
- Ritu Ghatourey
The recent death of my maternal grandfather due to Covid and then everything after made me realise something very important. Over the years for various reason I have it avoided that house, call it self preservation. What I realised is there was one person there who loved my mother to pieces and tried everything in his capacity to make her life better. He cared about me too and tried to connect. He would call, ask for me and request that I visit but I just did not.
Now when I look back all those years, I have no memories with him. No time to think back on and grieve over. I lost a grandfather 5 years ago but I had another one and I chose not to spend time with him. What I lost was precious time to learn from him, to create memories that I would have cherished for life.
I cannot go back and change what has happened because we lost him this week. I do promise myself that if my grandmother comes home, I will make an effort to connect and create a relationship with her. This is the only grandparent I have left and who knows what she can teach me.
I don't normally take relationships for granted. I value them, cherish them and invest in them. This one unfortunately I did not and hence will live to regret it for the rest of my life.
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