The Independent Child
Sometimes I really wonder if my parents forget that I am their child. I am extremely independent, have been since I was a child. At some level I took the responsibility of being the parent and forgot to be the child. I think in the process I am not sure if my parents remember either that I am their child.
Simple things like a birthday. Today my father asked me we should go out and celebrate my sisters birthday. The sister who isn't even in town and who already had her birthday celebration. Or yesterday mom called me asking me to check my sisters tickets when she comes to Mumbai and to book her on a flight instead of a train. She must have called me multiple times, not even bothering to check what I was doing or how I was.
Sometimes I really wonder do they forget that I am their child or I might want something ? I had a birthday too, I was asked what I wanted and I said nothing cause I did not want to burden anyone and so that is exactly what I got nothing. No cake, no special food and no celebration. I am packing house in 3 weeks, I am moving to Delhi, I guess I will figure it out myself because nobody asked if I wanted help or if I needed something. I am flying to Delhi and going to Ranikhet too, but no one asked how I am going. I know I should not be whining, I can do all of this myself but sometimes I just wonder how it would be to let mom or dad or someone else take care of it.
I really wonder is it because I am too independent, don't ask for anything and so I forgot how to be the child and they the parents. Guess I am not sure how I can say that, I might need a shoulder to lean on someday or just some concern about what I might want. On some days I want to just be the child and I am not sure if I know how to be that or ever will...
Simple things like a birthday. Today my father asked me we should go out and celebrate my sisters birthday. The sister who isn't even in town and who already had her birthday celebration. Or yesterday mom called me asking me to check my sisters tickets when she comes to Mumbai and to book her on a flight instead of a train. She must have called me multiple times, not even bothering to check what I was doing or how I was.
Sometimes I really wonder do they forget that I am their child or I might want something ? I had a birthday too, I was asked what I wanted and I said nothing cause I did not want to burden anyone and so that is exactly what I got nothing. No cake, no special food and no celebration. I am packing house in 3 weeks, I am moving to Delhi, I guess I will figure it out myself because nobody asked if I wanted help or if I needed something. I am flying to Delhi and going to Ranikhet too, but no one asked how I am going. I know I should not be whining, I can do all of this myself but sometimes I just wonder how it would be to let mom or dad or someone else take care of it.
I really wonder is it because I am too independent, don't ask for anything and so I forgot how to be the child and they the parents. Guess I am not sure how I can say that, I might need a shoulder to lean on someday or just some concern about what I might want. On some days I want to just be the child and I am not sure if I know how to be that or ever will...
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