Brain Dead
Yeah thats what I feel every night and almost every other day. I sit in front of the computer, stare at facebook ,hoping someone will ping me. I have been studying at the business school for a year now. Thought I made some friends but not really any close ones so guess no one cares what I am doing over summer.
Being so far away does not help. Everyone is either in New York or San Fran. They meet every other weekend, go on trips and hang out together. Me on the other hand watch stupid movies on TV, stare at my phone and computer wishing someone would call me. The lack of friends is shocking but I don't seem to have a lot even in Mumbai where I grew up. Most of my days here have been frittered away sitting in front of the idiot box watching horrid soap operas.
I can understand why people here become so oblivious to the world, its because they live in a surreal world where all that exists is their family, the tv and everything that is shown on it. I am glad, I escaped, met a lot of people and created a new world for me. I think if I stayed back I would have become like the rest of them. I need to make some new friends or I am definitely going to become brain dead and stupid. Also need to figure out how to sleep at a normal time like I usually do in the US and not at 2am when I have exhausted my eyes and brain to a point when they can't function and hurt. I need to get out just to exercise my brains and muscles but am not sure who to call and who to talk to.
Being so far away does not help. Everyone is either in New York or San Fran. They meet every other weekend, go on trips and hang out together. Me on the other hand watch stupid movies on TV, stare at my phone and computer wishing someone would call me. The lack of friends is shocking but I don't seem to have a lot even in Mumbai where I grew up. Most of my days here have been frittered away sitting in front of the idiot box watching horrid soap operas.
I can understand why people here become so oblivious to the world, its because they live in a surreal world where all that exists is their family, the tv and everything that is shown on it. I am glad, I escaped, met a lot of people and created a new world for me. I think if I stayed back I would have become like the rest of them. I need to make some new friends or I am definitely going to become brain dead and stupid. Also need to figure out how to sleep at a normal time like I usually do in the US and not at 2am when I have exhausted my eyes and brain to a point when they can't function and hurt. I need to get out just to exercise my brains and muscles but am not sure who to call and who to talk to.
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